Sarah Stories: A Psalm For Me

(No, I am not writing my own scriptures, but I am awake in the wee hours of the morning and a bit fretful.)

I was all psyched up to have a baby today! And now instead of holding a baby in my arms this afternoon, I have a few more days to *think* and second guess and, and, and...

What am I worrying about? All the things that could go wrong. I am not by nature the type of person who generally views life that way but instead, I lean more toward trusting that things will be OK. I just have so much on my mind and heart and I am starting to feel overwhelmed by the "what ifs." It occurred to me to write down the comforting truths that are written on the tablet of my heart so that in the times when they're hard to remember, I can see them here in black and white.

The very one who holds the universe together, has my name engraved upon his hands and has promised he will never forget me. He never sleeps - He watches over me and will keep me from harm. Nothing comes into my life that does not first pass through His hand. He works everything out for my good and His Glory. He created the life inside me and cares deeply for it. He has taken great care to knit it together inside of me and created this child in His image. Our family has entered into a covenant with the God of creation. Our marriage and our family is a sacred relationship instituted and ordained by Him and he cares intimately about all of us - even those still in the womb - even those whom he has not yet begun to form. All the pages of my life's book are written. There is not one event in my life that the God of eternity has not already seen me through and ordained and planned as part of my story. There is nothing that will ever occur in my life that will take Him by surprise. There is nothing that He has not already made provision for and walked through with me. He wants me to tell Him when I am fearful or anxious and cast all my cares on Him because He cares for me. He provides for all of my needs. Not only "provides" for them, but does so abundantly. In Christ, I have everything I need for life and Godliness. I can trust in Him to give me strength and I can do ALL things through Him who gives me that strength. The same power that raised Christ from the grave LIVES IN ME. I am to "dwell" not on the things that *could* happen or go wrong. I am instead to think about things that are true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, or praiseworthy. He cares for the flowers of the field and the birds of the air. HOW MUCH MORE does He care for me and this child he has created? He lavishes His love upon me - not because I deserve or have earned it. If I were to be given what I have earned, I would be empty, desolate, hopeless. Yet, He fills my life with GOOD things - not because I am good but because His love for me is so great. His goodness and mercy pursue me. I. AM. HIS.